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Posted on Feb 28th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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"The crossing of great rivers is that whereby inner nurturance
and outer effectiveness is accomplished."


Like being a wall
of immense height
stopping in unknowing
breaking through space
nurturance of the great
subduing energy
stilling strength
the mind that is not mind
is called the true mind
it has no location
immaterial yet not void
it is open awareness
unobscured
integrated with the
celestial principle
one rest
in the highest good


"The path of producing happiness is the consumation of harmonious
action."

"For wealth to be daily renewed it is necessary to act in accord with the
time: only then can one suceed."

"If one can accord with the time, then the promotion of strength
can be correct, and the use of intelligence can be appropriate."

"Joy is that that whereby virtue is made harmonious, virtue is that
whereby joy is made complete.

"How can people be happy without honoring virtue?"


The Taoist I Ching
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full circle

Posted on Feb 28th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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what are the central truths

to the art of living? that

the more turly solitary

we are the more present

our love becomes... it is to

step back from your mind

and understand all things

can you cleanse your

inner vision

until you see nothing

but the light?

for lack of a better

name we call this

the Tao... beyond movement
and stillness adjusted
appropriately according
to events."

"They use danger to nourish joy,
and use joy to guard against danger.
The situation may be up to others,
but the creation of destiny
is up to oneself."

"Like the sections of bamboo;
each section has a boundry,
each section has a passage.
This is why discipline
is developmental."

"Going along with the time,
they deal with everything
unminding, and therefore
can get beyond yin and yang,
not being constrained
by yin and yang."


The Taoist I Ching


timely and reasonable
auspicious and impeccable
orderly and regulated
adjusted appropriately
according to events
not restricted
to a single pattern
the created universe
cannot bind them

awaiting the newborn
quintessential
at peace with
suchness as is
original creative energy
does not leak away


silenced - suppressed

is and is not

eternally present

mother of the universe

being detached

from all things

that is how

we become

one with them

the Tao doesn't

take sides but

welcomes both

saints and sinners

gives birth to

both good and evil

has no desire

for itself

thus it can be

present for all

because the master

has let go of

herself she is

prefectly present

and doesnt reject

anyone

empty yet

infinately capable

like a bellows

the more you use it

the more it produces

the more we talk of it

the less we understand

hold to the center

all concepts are illusions


the Tao says 'Hope is a hollow as fear'
whether we go up the ladder or down it
our position is shaky better to always
have both feet planted on the ground
'Success is as empty as failure' we
observe the turmoil of all beings
yet contemplate their return...
hold on to the center...
be content and their is no need
of others approval... self acceptance
means the whole world accepts you
for complicated minds extreme
measures are needed
infinate and eternal never born
always constant unchanging
master nature not in the sense
of conquring it but becoming it
giving up all concepts and desires
the mind grows naturally compationate
find deep within ourselves the central
truths to the art of living paradoxical
only on the surface... the more truly
solitary we are the more compassionate
we can be... the more we let go of the
the things we love the more present our
love becomes... the clearer our insight
into what is beyond good and evil the
more we can embody the good until
finally we can say in all humility
'I am the tao the truth the life'
moral in the deepest sense unencumbered
by any concept of sin the Tao does not
see evil as a force to resist but simply
as an opaquness a state of self obsorption
that is in disharmony with the universal
process so that as with a dirty window the
light cann't shine through this freedom
from moral catagory allows us great compassion
for the wicked and the selfish thus the master
is available to all people and doesn't reject
anyone ready to use all situations and doesn't
waste anything this is called emboding the light
a work in progress please disreguard
any lapse in logical content
drawn from the Stephen Mitchell
translation of the Tao Te Ching on tape



belief rules the mind

"Though near to reality by nature, people become
estranged by habit."

"If noble people who cultivate the Tao only know the
small and do not know the great, they may thereby
maintain quietude in solitary tranquility, without action
or striving, but if they try to thereby fulfill their own
nature and reach their destiny, to travel the Path to
its further reaches, they will only call misfortune
upon themselves."

"When you act through the mind of Tao, the human
mind is peaceful and quite, obedient to natural
principle, extinquishing falsehood by reality,
finding the master and not straying."

sound at the beginning
sound at the end
the mind of Tao
comes into being
the human mentality
does not arise
completion without
fabrication
yielding obediance
to strength
not allowing
external falsehood
to damage
internal reality
sincere, serene
and utterly empty
hiding one's refinements
one can maintain rectitude
be correct
in accord with others
mindful of consequences
while flexible
one is firm
while receptive
one can be strong
after rectitude
comes creativity
whatever one creates
grows
whatever grows
bears fruit

"The reason cultivation of the Tao uses yin is just
to control the vehemence of artificial yang. Once
artificial yang has ceased, real yang should ad-
vance."

"If people can develop understanding from confusion,
make yin follow yang, use the human mind to return
to the mind of Tao, use the mind of Tao to govern
the human mind, finding the master after they had
previously lost it, even if they are stupid they will
become illumined, and even if they are weak they
will become strong."

"The mind with truthfulness is the mind of Tao,
when the mind of Tao becomes manifest, the
human mentality does not arrise - sane energy
grows, aberrant energy recedes, and one can
thus go in and out of yin and yang without being
constrained by yin and yang."


getting rid of falsehood
returning to reality
it is necessary
to work in the midst
of great danger
deep within
the dragon's pool
inside the tiger's lair
it can not be
accomplished
by empty tranquility
without action

"Only then can one restore one's orignal being
and develop it into something indestructible."

"In mastering pitfalls there is truthfulness; thus
the mind develops."

The Taoist I Ching


~~*~~


Yes and i realize that i am writing
dangerously close to the edge
with so much left open for
interputation. But under the
circumstances at that time in my life
i felt that i should allow things
to stand just as they are written...
Being a long time student of
health and nutrition once i had
gotten my settlement for the time
spent winning my claim for disability
i headed for Florida and an intensive
deep tisue cleanse which pretty
much sat me on the road to
recovery from a life time of
internal suffering obstructions
then i lost my home, my credit
was stolen, i went bankrupt,
yet worked my way off disabilty
just in time enough to discover
I was terminal ill which
once more knocked me off
my feet unable to work
at a job which was rapidly
wearing me down anyway
so now I am back to being
an artist and loving it
full circle

~*~*~*~*~

i can no longer endure
long days up on my feet
such as they are
it makes sense now
being an artist
breaking out the pastels
lights are all hung
and tables are covered
with all the colors
of the rainbow

charging $300 for a pastle
taken from a photo i think now
is a fair price and almost makes
the investment in my time worthwhile

still the hours that are required
to do a good job is, i suppose,
better than the hard labor i
was doing before even if it is
only pennys on the dollar
if I can just squeeze out
two finished portraits
per month i can survive
comfortably on my disability
(already i have one more
scheduled after this one)
And don't get me started
on the subject of disability
all the presumptions
and judgements
that go along with the stigma
of being considered "disabled"
kinda works as a strike against
one's innate intelligence

back in about 1991 or 92
my vocational rehab
councilor suggested that
i should look into it
after having listened
to my complaints of
internal obstructions
for nearly 14 years

it had never occured to me
to consider my long term
suffering as disabling
but the more I thought
about it the more it
seemed to make sense

all those years fighting for my life
on a bicyle or swimming the Cape Fear
I had learned that as this condition
worsened my only hope of pushing
through the obstructions upon my clarity
was to practice endurance beyond
the limits of normal human capacity
bicycling in some cases as much as,
if not more than, 250 miles in a single wk
at the outer extreme...
but usely not less than 125 miles
on average in a normal week

so there i am bicycling one leggedly
an enigma within a dichotomy
all my time since early high school
absorbed in the sactuary of
my library in books
yet at every turn i find myself
hated and reviled within a community
of purely black and white extremes
and there i am stuck in the middle
living the life of an esthetic while
all along the rumor mills were
grinding my bones to dust



 

please forgive the apparent
redundancy here but some
things bare repeating...


"In substance they are always calm,
like a lake without waves:
in function they act like water
which conforms to it's environment.
Their calmness does not reach
the point of losing mindfulness,
and their activity does not
reach the point of
straying from essence.
There is consistency
about their




forces of nature
the wind blows
howls through
my kitchen window
like thunder through
the trees our earth
is dying - rebirthing
and we are the
disease
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New Beginning

Posted on Feb 20th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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Funny how the Tao seems to suck the air out of a room...
Takes all the fun out of argument...

Unification of strength and flexibility
resting in supreme good
without evil...
the function of reduction
is extremely fine and subtle
to be effective it changes
according to the time
it is not a matter of fixed rules
if we do not perfect the beginning
how will we complete the end?

"When practice of the Tao is always present,
and the gold elixir crystalizes; going on thereby
to transmute the human mind, there is all - around
benefit. The mind of Tao is the master, the human
mind is the servant. When the mind of Tao is in
charge of things, every step, every undertaking, is
celestial design; personal desires do not arise, and
even the human mind transforms into the mind of Tao:
'getting a servant, there is no house' - all pollution
vanishes, aggregated mundanity is stripped away,
and the elixir is perfected. Leaping out of the cage
of the ordinary, one's life span is myraid years. This
is returning to ultimate good by reduction."

The Taoist I Ching

Clearly we are far to attached to our personal desires
to consider the truth of it.




The Alchemical Classics

ToltecLogic

For those who are genuinly curious...


The Mysterious Female

"Practice of the universal science requires using the original

spirit to control the discriminating spirit. When the discrimi-

nating spirit does not arise, aberrant fire goes out; when

aberrant fire goes out, true fire arises. When true fire arises,

the harmonious energy is fertile and the mechanism of life

does not cease; so there is hope of attaining the universal Tao.

"The ignorant who do not know this mistake the conscious

discriminating spirit for the original spirit. This is wrong.

The original spirit is the nonpsychic spirit, its consciousness

most real, its reality most conscious. The conscious discrimi-

nating spirit is the psychic spirit; though conscious, there is

artificiality in it. Consciousness in the midst of artificality is

the seed of compulsive habit and routine. An ancient adept

said, 'The root of infinite ages of birth and death, the ignor-

ant call the original being.' The root of birth and death is

the discriminating spirit."


"Mysterious stands for yang, for strength, for action; female

stands for yin, for flexibility, for stillness. The opening of the

mysterious female is the aperture of yin and yang, the door

of strength and flexibility, the gate of action and stillness;

it has no direction, no location, no shape, no form. It is like

an opening hung in space, where the five elements cannot

reach, where the physical elements cannot touch. Ultimate

nonbeing, it contains ultimate being; ultimate emptiness,

it contains ultimate fulfillment. This is the opening within

the conjunction of yin and yang.


"The ignorant who do not know this take mouth and nose

to be the mysterious female. The mouth and nose are the

gate through which the breath exits and enters, not the

gate through which yin and yang enter. When yin and

yang conjoin, they produce immortals and buddhas; can

the air breathed in and out produce immortals and bud-

dhas? Understanding Reality says, 'Few are they who

know the opening of the mysterious female; do not act at

random with the nose and mouth.'"


"The mysterious pass is a most recondite and abstuse pass-

ageway. It is also called the door of life and death, the

chamber of vivifing and killing, the border of divinity and

humanity, the gate of punishment and reward, the opening

of being and nonbeing, the lair of spirit and energy, the

ground of emptiness and fulfillment, the crossroads, and

many other names. All of these terms depict this one open-

ing. The mysterious pass is another name for the mysteri-

ous female. Because its recondite subtlety is unfathomable,

it is called the mysterious pass; because yin and yang are

herein, it is called the mysterious female. Really it is just

this one opening.


"The ignorant who do not know this sometimes take the

space below the heart and above the genitals to be the

mysterious pass; some consider the center of the umbilical

region to be the mysterious pass; some call the coccyx the

mysterious pass; some take the center of the spine, where

it joins the ribs, to be the mysterious pass. These are all

wrong. The mysterious pass has no fixed position; if it

had a fixed position, it would not be the mysterious pass.

"Ch'en Hsu-pai referred to the point where thought arises

as the mysteriouus pass; this seems to be correct, but really

is not. The point where thought arises already has fallen

into the realm of temporal form; how can it be considered

the mysterious pass?


"I now clearly point out to you that the mysterious pass

lies in subtle abstraction, where being and nonbeing in-

terpenetrate. Understnading Reality says, 'Seek the image

of being in the subtle; seek the true vitality in the recon-

dite. From this being and nonbeing interpenetrate; before

you have seen it, how can you imagine it?' Also the Four

Hundred Words on the Gold Elixir says, 'This opening is

not an ordinary aperture, made by Heaven and Earth to-

gether, it is called the lair of spirit and energy. Within

are the vitalities of Water and Fire,' These passages truly

point out the opening of the mysterious pass."


"However, there are few people in the world who are in

genuine earnest. Most cannot put forth intensive effort

or endure long perseverance; also they do not seek out

the fundamental true principles, but just think of the mys-

terious pass and mysterious female in terms of physical

locations and do some minor techniques which are at-

tached either to voidness or to form, falsely imagining

that they will attain the Tao thereby. This is pitiful.


"If one is a true stalwart, one can decisively set aside all

entanglements, so that all objects are empty, and concen-

trate on the matter of most urgent importance, call on

teachers, form associations with worthy companions,

never changing one's determination; then one can even-

tually come to know the mysterious pass, see the myster-

ious female, and finally comprehend essence and life.

Students should work on this."


"The great Tao is uncontrived,

based on spontaneity;

But until the work is complete,

one cannot adapt with autonomy."


"The Inner Teachings of Taoism"

Chang Po-tuan




"Lao-tzu Said:"

according to Wen-Tzu


"Those who are known as real people are united in essence

with the Way, so they have endowments yet appear to have

none; they are full yet appear to be empty. They govern the

inside, not the outside. Clear and pure, utterly plain, they

do not contrive artificialities but return to simplictiy.

Comprehending the fundamental, embracing the spirit,

thereby they roam the root of heaven and earth, wander

beyond the dust and dirt, and travel to work at noninvolve-

ment. Mechanical intelligence does not burden their minds;

they watch what is not temporal and are not moved by

things.


Seeing the evolution of events, they keep to the source. Their

attention is focused internally, and they understand calamity

and fortune in the context of unity. They sit unconscious of

doing anything, they walk unconscious of going anywhere.

They know without learning, see without looking, succeed

without striving, discern without comparing. They respond to

feeling, act when pressed, and go when there is no choice,

like the shining of light, like the casting of shadows.


They take the Way as their guide; when there is any opposi-

tion they remain empty and open, clear and calm, and then

the opposition disappears.


They consider a thousand lives as one evolution, they regard

ten thousand differences as of one source. They have vitality

but do not exploit it; they have spirit but do not make it labor.

They keep to the simplicity of wholeness and stand in the center

of the quintessential."


translated and edited by

Thomas Cleary



 

Dissipation

"The human body is only vitality, energy, and spirit. If you

do not care about your vitality and waste it arbitarily,

that is like putting water into a leaking cup; it will not fill

the cup, but will gradually leak away. Finally it will be

all gone, not a drop left. If you do not care about your en-

ergy but let it go whichever way it will, that is like placing

incense on a red-hot brazier, letting it burn away; add

more fuel and fire, and the incense will become ash. If you

do not care about your spirit and dissipate it arbitrarily,

that is like placing a lone lamp in the wind, uncovered, so

that it goes out.


"The Seed of Emotion"


"Because of the six organs, people produce the six con-

sciousness; and because of the six consciousness they

produce emotions. They hardly realize that emotions

confuse them in regard to fundamental reality. Once fun-

damental reality is lost sight of, then emotions run wild.

But the seed of all emotions is craving. Why is this? Be-

cause craving is at the root of emotions. If you don't

crave anything, you don't want anything; if you don't

want anything, how can you be attracted to anything?

If you are not attracted to anything, you are not re-

pulsed by anything; if you have neither attraction nor

repulsion, what anger can there be? When there is no

anger, fear does not occur; without fear, sadness dis-

appears.


So we know that cravings is the root of emotions, If you

try to control emotions forcibly without extripating the

root, you control nothing but outgrowths. This is like a

flood of water: if you try to dam it without stopping the

source or clearing the flow , eventually you'll be drown-

ed. It is also like a blazing fire: if you try to beat it out

without removing its fuel or cuting off its path, you'll

just increase the force of the flames, so that you'll be

threatened at every turn. It is also like the waves of the

ocean, one following another endlessly.


Feeling emotions and evoking them, they all accom-

pany the mind, growing according to circumstances.

Only developed people, knowing the seed, use the

sword of wisdom with great aspiration and fierce de-

termination to cut through the root and sprouts, extir-

pate undesirable syndromes, and prevent emotions

from growing on them like parasites.


"Disorientation"


"The emotions are a huge bolt, and craving is the lock

on the bolt. When you cut through the lock and take

away the bolt, you can get beyond the barrier and go

in peace, freely, without hinderance. Mastering under-

standing of the ultimate Way, you then ascend to ex-

alted reality. I pity people who create all sorts of

demons and obstacles because of cravings. They are

confused and disoriented all their lives, rarely tak-

ing stock of themselves. Even when people of high

attainment try to enlighten them, it is like beating a

drum for the deaf, like presenting a lamp to the blind.

After all they do not wake up. What a pity! Still they

feigh interest in the Way, but their interest is misguid-

ed - what they seek is immortality. This is like opening

pandora's box - it's not that they don't find anything,

but there is harm in it.


"Removing Emotions"

"How can you remove emotions? The way to remove

them is to think there is no self. What is called no

self? The self is originally not self; we are not these

selves. So what does the self cleave to? Once there is

self and you cling to it as yourself, when clinging to

the self as yourself, then nothing is not self. When

nothing is not self, there is nothing to which the self

does not cleave. The country is not one's own, yet

one will die for love of it; the home is not one's own,

yet one will die for love of it. Things are not one's

own, yet one dies for them, like flies seeking ordure,

like ants gathering in putrid flesh, like bees tring to

get through a closed window, smashing themselves

against it when they see the sunlight. Gluttony and

greed make people like vultures, insatiably vora-

cious. But try to think of the self; before the self ex-

isted, it wasn't like this: it must have been clear and

cool. The self is transient, like a fleeting shadow,

like the morning dew - in a moment the self is gone.

Since the self has no self, what is the purpose of

self-love? You will grab your heart and laugh in

astonishment; when you meditate in this way,

what craving will not disappear?


"Nurturing the Seed"

"The seed of the beginningless is undefinable, imper-

ceptible, formless; how does one set about nurturing

it? The way to nurture it is to nurture the temporal

first. The temporal nature has inner design and en-

ergy, pure and polluted, real and false, which can-

not be equated; what can be nurtured? Nurturing

and quelling means to get rid of the false and purify

the polluted. Getting rid of the false is not easy, pur-

ifying the polluted is difficult. Out of pity for people,

I will point out the way to start.


Where do you start? From pure desirelessness. When

you have no desire, there is reality. Reality is without

fabrication; when there is no fabrication, there is

purity. When pure, you can be clear; when real, you

can understand. What can you clearly understand?

The attainment of pure reality illumines everything;

the clarity of illumination understands every way."


Sayings of Ancestor LU

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Hard Truth

Posted on Feb 15th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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last nickle christmas

all the things
to be thankful for
a great cup of coffee
starbucks in the morning
presently downgraded
to a less tasty blend
a good pair of sunglasses
reduced to a less reliable pair
while raking leaves
i still haven't given up the search
a computer that works
windows 98 no longer
supports up dates
and this old computer
quit working the last
really cold snap we had
sort of like my prized poinsettia
the one rescued from the
grabage heep florished
for nearly three years
until the heat was turned off
frozen wash cloths would hang
across the shower rod
not much for entertaining guest
this was the beginning
of my new lease on life
beating terminal illness
in order of priority
drinking water came first
then food for the cat
who often sat bewildered
by the kitchen door
crying to get out
into the warmer sunlight
her cries hanging
visibly froozen
in the early morning air
that was the most difficult
next came the dial up
internet connection...
and last of all was the food
often given by
local church organizations
some of it you just
couldn't eat... pig's tails
and cow kidneys
it was a rough
couple of years
no heat or running water
that first cold winter

just when you say
Oh, it couldn't get any worse
the X' swoops in borrows the car
-while i am feverishly writing-
-as if my life depeded on it-
(before the heat was turned off)
and blows the engine 87 Volvo
740 GLE station wagon perfect
for hard labor paying my dues...

the cure had been successful
but now for the first time
in my life i could no longer
wear my leg apparent
wiplash complications
from this horrendous
six month treatement
that inadvertantly
was completely successful
turns out my immunity
had fallen so low
that i had become allergic
to the materials that
were used to make repairs...
I've completely worn out
a whole 'nother leg since then
still hanging on by a thread
to keeping the creative fires burning
this was my new 'Walden'


I should clarify (varify) that I do not
seek an eye for an eye...
When I spoke of 'vindication'
this should be in the past tense
my poetry these past 5 years
is all the vindication i need...
I have no desire for living in the past



an unfortunate bit of business
you were hidden in obscurity
entrenched in ambiguity
a double entendra double gainer
doubly mordant easy target
an enigma within a dichotomy



what happens when you are convicted,
in small town obscurity, for a
terrible crime you did not commit?
to protect the innocent....

you get an education in swift
and perpetual injustice
that carries on
behind closed doors
the way things are done
southern justice
at its best
in recognition of
all those who have
the esteemed honor
of hitting high marks
on the list of these
things to be done
shit happens
you get use to it
no amount of vindication
will change the fact
perpetuate nefarious
iniquities fallacious
transgressions
unture
beneath this lie
the die is caste
the deception is set
for the common good
guilt or innocence
is of no consequence
only the appearance
of guilt is sufficient
for the innocent
to be tortured
for our freedoms
gestapo tactics
for the greater good
reputations are set to
ridicule and derision
put to ruin and torched
- just the way things work
the end justifies the means
shaken from the appearance
of normalcy a lesson
in false opinions
taken as fact
bogus ersatz
justice
reprehend
condemn blame
and censure...
the reprobate
must pay
small town cops
with nothing
better to do
twisted justice

those on the
top
shit list
have it coming


manufactured
fabricated
wicked justice


hanging at death's door
you awaken to
new found purpose
a twice told tale
everything turns
full circle
as if it mattered
your writing
has struck a cord
who were these people
one day all happy
and friendly
the next as cold as ice
you watch the rumor
mills grind once more
your bones into dust
'Beneath obstruction'
funny how fickle
this fabric can be
this tissue of lies
come again
to take you out
at the knees
quite a thing to see
'who pulls these strings?'
you were suppose
to remain silent
in the land of the dead
but now you turn
and face your detractors
all puppets on a string
bought and sold
for the price of gold
locked into this matrix
who are you to stand
your ground did they
not take from you
everything of
any true value
and cast you
into this pit
filled with vipers



it was interesting to see
the results of my
first blog, we think we
have out lived the reach
of malevolence and spite
where the truth could
be told and the record
set to right... but such
was not the case, real
evil hides in plain sight
because... "Anyone
foolhardy enough to
proclaim publicly an
inner alligence with an
identity that no one
else believes in, is
simply asking for
trouble they well
deserve for senseless
lack of discretion. In
worlds where the majority
vote is otherwise cast the
life of such a seeker may
be made very unpleasant.
That is only to be expected."
W.G.

Because it is true, as Gibran
so eloguently pointed out,
"Wisdom stands on the
street corner and calls to
us above the multitude,
but we deem her a thing
without worth and dispise
them that follow her."
Shit happens and you just
get use to it... So all those
idiots who think they are
on the path to nirvana
really haven't a clue what
they are in for within the
real world - Silence is golden.

As a young man of 21 years
working this path of the
inward way, i went in search
of my own version of
Thoreau's "Walden". My
entire life i had suffered
with indeterminate health
concerns which had
precluded any possibility
of a so called normal life.
But during this intensive
recapitulation process
something quite
unexpected happened.
And my life would be
forever altered.



1977 the year everything changed
public hazing by high level
administration officials
None other than the director
of 'Counceling and Testing'
Dr. Newton himself...
Grown people with PHD's
behaving badly
creating a public spectacle
exhibition exposition
panoply extravaganza
serving you up as the main dish
on that opening day for
summer registration
but you stood your ground
and at the end it was he
who would storm
out of the room
in a furious huff
like a child who
could not get his way...
after all wasn't it I
who was suppose
to turn tail and run
singled our in public...
thus began my life
in higher education
if you could call it that

Newton had called me
into his office
just the day before
to quiz me thoroughly
on what it means
to be 'enlightened'
and for the hundredth time
i reluctantly agreed to
capitulate to this demand
i had unsderstood to late
the true value in silence
seems word had gotten around
the cat was out of the bag
and there was no putting
this genii back in the bottle
all through out this
interrogation ours eyes
would never meet
there was this smuk smirk
simpering for no apparent
reason across his face
in ripples of hidden delight
which was most inappropriate
and disconcerting... looking
away smiling in a
obnoxious manner all to soon
i would discover the reasons why

initially i had come to his office
to increase my reading speed


these are things no one
should ever be exposed to hear
and yet in spite of all the hazing
i did exceed 'lowest' expectations
and went on to win a departmental
scholarship for outstanding
achievement  (in art)
very much to the chagrin 
of my numerous detractors
and though i never spoke of it
again beyond that initial 3 day
virtual inquisition - i was never
allowed to forget the mistake
of speaking out of place




And so this attorney said, "According to the law
in this area, you are a bad man, and what you
have to do is prove to the judge is otherwise."
He then proceeded to tell me his fee which
would be required before he would even
consider speaking with me and exactly how
much i might need my day in court and
even with all that he still would not
guarantee to keep me out of jail. I was
indigant at his remark about being a "bad
man" and said how can that be when I
had never even been in any trouble
in that county let alone the town we were
sitting in. And in all earnestnest all he could
say was that "Word gets around."

And so when I came back to pay him his money
after talking myself blue in the face. His snid
little associate who had been sitting in on our
meeting, had the audacity to say, "Yes being
in such a seminary program would certainly
help your case, if indeed there is such a
place." I mean really how lame is that.
I guess you could say I could see the proverbial
writing on the way... if i couldn't even get my
own attorney to listen to my side of the story,
what chance in hell did i have my day in court?
And in that moment I knew exactly what it was
i would have to do if i were to have any hope of
success. I went home and wrote out a 7 page
letter listing all of my grievances and achievments
and ending by saying "and i would thank his
associate to keep his snid remarks to him self
from that day forward. To which this attorney would
reply in his most indignate voice, "Well if this is
the way you feel then i think you'd better find
yourself another attorney."
At which point it was my turn at diplomacy.
I said Sir if i can not even get you to believe my
side of the case, what chance do you think i
will have in court. I don't want another
attorney...
After all he came highly recommended
being the town's attorney. Once he had settled
down we shook hands and he agreed to represent me.
He did conceed and could not deny that the cops
were not above going out of their way to get
certain people off the street - their civic duty
and all that. It's just the way things get done.
We both knew i had been set up there
wasn't any denying it. I just wasn't
going to allow them to get away with it
any more...
Needless to say my day in court went far different
from his original prediction, the fine was far less than
originally mentioned and the judge actually apologized
for having to take my license after all it was mandatory.
And of course there was no mention of jail time. In
fact my attorney did not even show up himself
but sent his associate who now treated me with
the proper respect.
If only i had the good sense to realize the significance
of this major achievement in my life, i could have averted
much unnecessary trouble much later on.


To Be a Poet


The Agreement

The Policy
of hate
and control
polarize factions
destroy obfuscate
Stop the mystic mind
before it can multiply
what isn't us
must be them
kill all heretics
recognize the danger
don't invite it in
be silent
don't disrupt the apple cart
make waves and
pay the consequence
remain myopic and all is well
don't distrub dead religion
fear is the cause
of all consequence
open the portals of clarity
bless our petty tyrants



Beneath Obstructed

they felt they were justifed
in burning me at the stake
going through the fire
getting to the other side
being celibate all those years
not knowing what this might bring
I had become enlightened
soon to be crucified
beneath obstruction
Carl Jung did say
it is "a moment of deadliest peril!"
"this immortal" capacity
we have within
it is in the voice of sages
silent as thunder
discredit me
rob me of my good name
I can see the image you would create
a lie built upon obstruction


truth is stranger than fiction
status quo the powers that be
better to leave them alone...
invisibility is the art of survival


Epitaph

And any last brave words
In the face of death
It is a good day to die
We have the capacity not
To think about
Those things we find
Fearful like our
Own Mortality
Let alone that of others
Stand up
There is no dress rehearsal
Live fully in the moment
Future and past have no presence


i was a portrait artist
but now i am a poet
tettering on the brink
of oblivion leaping
into the abyss...

one day i will paint again
but for now all that matters
is vindication... living
on a shoe string not knowing
how ends will meet... no
car and no insurance the
price is far to high and
this root canel may have to
wait another year unless it
kills me first... they say
it is nothing to play with
the infection can affect the
heart... but it was worth
the risk working this past
year in complete obscurity
one day this book will be
written and then once again
i can play at being an artist
but for now words are more
important... this knee is
almost completely gone and
the hip isn't much better
all those many years on a
bicycle have taken their
toll i was told 25 years
ago "You ain't no spring
chicken anymore" bicyling
60 miles in 100 degree heat
but my grandmother just
didn't understand that is
all that kept me going
one step ahead of the
grim reaper my many
character assassins had
done their work quite well i
was not intended to survive

~*~*~*~*~*~

and what about the next
couple of decades how would
one survive under the microscope
of - close - public scrutiny?
taciturn tight-lipped reticent
rigorous nigh near-at-hand
atrium enclosure upon oneself
quadrangle(d) kaput finito
terminus and finished
in termination
conclusive completion
end of story dead...
shut out and shrouded
obscured and obstructed
impossible to see
beyond the image
convened forgathered
and congregated
to muster my demise
choked clogged and congested
in close-fisted penurious
proximity to death

silenced - suppressed


Feb. 19 presidents day

there is a push to move me over to Chapel
Hill but now I resist my life won't fit in a
box under the stairs with no windows
i need light - i won't live in another
dungeon - (i've had it with NC mold)....
And that is the primary complaint
with where i reside now there are such
magnificent high ceilings but no north light
oh but for a studio where one day i could
comfortably paint high windows and sky
lights a place to live where my skills
in home repairs and grounds keeping
won't go to waste but above all I now
wish to paint - the photos were in the mail
for today but it is a holiday - along with a
fair advance in payment... I had done
a portrait for this guy, it is hard to believe,
14 years ago, i just couldn't afford all the
time required to do a good as a pastle
painter portait artist - for the time envolved
the pay off is small, but now that my resources
have run out considerably sooner than expected....
seems I got caught in a con at the bank
(I had planned to spend all this time
working on my writing... which i did
my rent is covered under my disability
payment but not the utilities which
are growing exponentially thanks
to all my new friends next door -
i could have moved into public
housing 2 years ago, but I
stay for the cat even if they allowed
pets she has always been free to
roam here on the outskirts of
hillsborough)
but by the time I spoted the missing
cash, it was way to late
Who was going to take my word for it
at that point - i don't tend to think of
these things before hand...
the teller slipped me a bundle supposedly
$2,000 in $100s but when I finally counted
the contents - more than two had passed -i
t only contained $1,200 ! Oh well,
like my Grand Daddy always use to say in
business if they can live with it, I can live
without it... it is all to much of an embarrassment
i feel foolish even mentioning it now... but it's
nothing like the $40,000 that was taken
back in the mid 80's or the credit card that
was froged in my name under the pretence
of friendship in 1995 lost my home so to speak
went bankrupt again to the tune of $40,000
and then there was all the rest of it, i suppose
the worst of it, in my personal experience, was
exposure to this mutated form of black mold
that pretty much made my life a living hell
for a whole lot of years... But i am thankful
for where i am today and able to get around
as well as I do after serving my time in hard labor
doing home repairs and complete remodels and
additions... it was good experience, then my
body just gave out under the stain of terminal
illness.. And now finally my life has turned full
circle once again getting back to the roots of
my art I guess $250 isn't bad getting started
dusting off my pastles and hanging up the
florescents as we speak.... my concern now
is how long can I keep lugging this 4 gals
drinking water on my bike through the town
of Hillsborough - there is now a constant
reminder like a tooth ach deep down
in my bones... i call it survival - certainly my
many years on a bicycle have now taken
their toll... we don't notice these things
when we are young and full of beans....


Funny how the Tao seems to suck the air out of a room...
Takes all the fun out of argument...

Unification of strength and flexibility
resting in supreme good
without evil...
the function of reduction
is extremely fine and subtle
to be effective it changes
according to the time
it is not a matter of fixed rules
if we do not perfect the beginning
how will we complete the end?

"When practice of the Tao is always present,
and the gold elixir crystalizes; going on thereby
to transmute the human mind, there is all - around
benefit. The mind of Tao is the master, the human
mind is the servant. When the mind of Tao is in
charge of things, every step, every undertaking, is
celestial design; personal desires do not arise, and
even the human mind transforms into the mind of Tao:
'getting a servant, there is no house' - all pollution
vanishes, aggregated mundanity is stripped away,
and the elixir is perfected. Leaping out of the cage
of the ordinary, one's life span is myraid years. This
is returning to ultimate good by reduction."

The Taoist I Ching

Clearly we are far to attached to our personal desires
to consider the truth of it.


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The Taoist I Ching

Posted on Feb 14th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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"Actual practice in real life is most important, to finish
what has been started."

"As long as one has not yet reached the serene,
equanimous realm of the middle way, work cannot be
stopped; one must daily reduce for the sake of the Tao,
daily increasing one's accomplishment. Reducing and
reducing again, increasing and increasing again, until
there is no more to be reduced and no more to be in-
creased, so strength and softness correspond, inside
and outside merge with the Tao, in perfect goodness
without evil, wholly integrated with the design of nature -
only then is the work of reducion and increasing no
longer needed."

"One's fate now depends on oneself, not on heaven. Be
sincere in reduction, and within reduction there is increase.
This is no small matter."


returning to the bases
reduction requires
care in the beginning
going back to the origin
we must take care
to know the timing
the bliss of freedom
and nonstriving
correctness brings
good fortune


"Percise and singleminded, keeping to the center, like catching
foxes in the fields and not letting the foxes run wild; yet neither
does one seek forced extinction of the human mind, like having
golden arrows and not hurting the foxes. Not indulging, not
injuring, going along with its desires to gradually guide it, one
causes it to naturally dissolve, so one is liberated without trying
to be liberated. This is the most fortunate liberation."

"Whether the mind of Tao has become liberated or not can be
checked in the human mind."

"Strong yet balanced, the mind of Tao ever present, the human
mentality not arising, yin and yang harmoniously combined,
the gold elixer takes on form: Just when you should carefully
stabilize it and store it securely, if you do not know when enough
is enough and go on reducing and increasing, you will reactivate
the human mentality, and thus obscure the mind of Tao."

"With yin obeying yang, sincerely seeking the method of immortality
of the other to reduce the illness of the self - then even those unable 
to reduce will be able to do so, and those unable to reduce quickly
will be able to do so. Finding gain within loss, not only is there joy, but
also there is no fault. This is reducing weakness and seeking
increase of strength."

"Those who practice the path of reduction should be sincere in re-
duction, so that they can perfect the beginning and complete the end."

"Studing when stumped, exerting effort to practice what is learned,
working intensely while struggling through difficulty, not worring about
not reaching the realm of great power - this is originally not being
powerful yet becoming powerful through resort to what is right."

The Taoist I Ching




Aumakua kupuna kuleana Kahuna


We are great and small
strong and flexible
celestial jewel
is not yet lost
forced effort
eager for
Quick results
Ends with sorrow
Break free
move without
going anywhere
honor our ancestors
lost wisdom
from the beginning
of time
celebrate life
in this moment

Nurture strength
stabilize basic energy
to the point of pure wholeness
using flexibility and yeilding
to nurture firmness and strength
the merging of yin and yang
strength culminating
in spiritual transformation

"With a peal of thunder the real person emerges, 
startling the ignorant, amazing the mundane. Beginning
with striving, which no one sees, when one arrives at nonstriving, 
for the first time one is known to others - who does not extol 
carrying the crossroads of heaven.?"

"When practioners of the Tao reach liberation and attain reality, there
is a body outside body, beyond heaven and earth... From greatness
of nurturance comes greatness of manifestation.. What can compare
to that development?"
 
The Taoist I Ching




 

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Small Town Utopia

Posted on Feb 13th, 2007 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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A plastic baggie full of 38 slugs
at the edge of my yard
as I go to retrieve my phone
these are young entrepreneurs
clubing house parties
cover charge at the door
getting tires shot out
a good friend they said
was just shot dead
he had the jump
but the chamber jammed
small town utopia
all in the news


my life has suddenly
become more interesting;
it is time for a change

a once innocent
gesture of kindness
and now i find myself
in the middle of
a war zone

gang wars have moved in next door
the fact that i vividly drempt this
in detail long before the arrival
tells me something... this
is no time to be sleep walking
god only knows how
blind we can be
to the warfare on our streets


eviction proceedings
were supposedly final
yesterday and in the
name of survival
is to remain malible
cordial friendly and amiable

within in the belly of the beast


God knows i need to move...
attempting to live on disability
outside of public housing
is next to impossible
without all the strain
on my resources next door
unpaid loans long distance calls
and now using my water
the past few weeks...
I have hard enough time
making ends meet
it is such a delicate balance
remaining centered while
at the same time able to
be the same as other people
i try to remain neutral
but i am caught in a hornets nest
i never suspected how
the law of survival
could produce such
incredible results
in unfettered rage
with no hope of redemption
until the drug lords gave them hope...
or bullet wounds and time served
produce an educated man
with multiple skills
not the least of which
being the authority on criminology 101
give respect and you will be respected
i can trust Tara to watch my cat while
i am away... the house has remained
opened and unlocked to intrusion
as always and still things remain safe
where it appears the party next door
is never ending... now cars in and out
all hours - horns blowing at
4:00 in the morning
in a culture where growing up meant
robing your way for a living... people
get shot, shot at and hit knocked down
beat up thrown in prison what hope
of getting free from the shakles of repression
there are success stories however,
of how to work the system....






it's four miles or more
round tripe to Wal-mart
on my bicycle one would
gain the impresssion
that i appear in perfect health
there are blood stains and sweat;
i've worn better fitting legs
i've earned this disability
and to find rest before
it becomes permanent
the walk alone to the
bus stop is a mile
i can no longer
do this comfortably
and gossip mills will fly
how is he disabled?
getting around so well?


there is a plan awaiting the next
golden opportunity

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Vulnerable

Posted on Dec 24th, 2006 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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Where the whole world is a stage
where kindness is a true
sign of weakness
ridicule respect or reputation
rush along upon the surface
appearance of things
we bow in somber homage
to the gods of opinion


Vulnerable

'Good guys finish last'
or so the saying goes
one needs to be vigilant
where susceptible
or vulnerable to deceit
where cunning guile
would win the day
forewarned is forearmned
liable assailable vulgar
malicious intent
thinly guised guile
in a smile or clever pharse...
seek beneath the surface of things
appearance is only skin deep
some measure of trust is essential
even among the most dispicable
we can trust a scorpion
to be a scorpion
we do not mistake
something the same
as something different
recognize the little kid
who would torture small animals
do not abuse my good nature


"Anyone who supposes to do good must not
expect people to roll stones out of the way,
but must accept his lot calmly if they even
roll a few more upon it."

Albert Schweitzer


lonesome lonely or alone

"The Lives of men who have to live in our
great cities are often tragically lonely. In
many more ways than one, these dwellers
in the hives are modern counterparts of
Tantalus. They are starving to death in
the midst of abundance. The crystal
stream flows near their lips but falls away
when they try to drink it. The vine, rich-
weighted with its golden fruit, bends
down, comes near, but springs back when
they reach to touch it."

Thomas Wolfe

~*~*~* () *~*~*~

Occaneechi


gentle raindrops
drip lightly
through the leaves
along this rocky trail
low hanging clouds
brush tree tops below
Occaneechi Mountain
rich mineral deposits
historically protected
a slow train trudges
through the mountain pass
whistles Blazing
shattering the silence
sparkling blue ribbon
meanders through
the distant trees
Eno River flows
far down below
I follow this trail
along the craggy cliff
off the beaten path
mountain climbing
on crutchs
alone in nature
I do not notice
now the pouring rain



Magical Morning


call call calling
into the distant trees
red tail hawk swoops
low out side my window
mockingbird sings
her joyous song
reminding me
of magnolia
in spring
blue jay screams
his cry of
constant conquest
somewhere
far away
As two doves
coo softly
from either
side of the house
later as I ride
great white goose
squawks alarm
at my passing bike
Redtail sits
in regal
silence
on his highwire



Small Town Utopia


Observe the patterns of
Swimming ducks
V shaped formations form
in two directions
A pleasant view out a
Dentist's window
A small stand of trees
before an earthen pond
peaceful industrial
complex across
from the Sports Plex
fitness center
Now the ducks have gone
parting on either
side of the window
the flight of birds
momentarily subsides
the forecast is for rain
Small town utopia

yard full of cardinals
bright red and brown
playful squirrels
scurry all around
two blue jays
jostle for position
gathering after the storm


TwiLight Ride

the last glimmer of sunlight
has set on the horizon
not guiet dark
twight on this road
at night - be sure
to wear a helmet
the quarry is hardly
an eighth of a mile away
been couped up inside all day
had hoped to get out earlier
i had forget how magical
the twilight can be

quarter moon just above the horizon
rising above the distant trees
below this quarry night time
sounds heighten the senses
enourmous angular bolders
now line the pit
they hadn't been there before
beautiful in the moonlight's
faint glow iridescent
stair step creations
impossible to resist
all alone in nature
deep in the forest
standing my ground

~*~*~*<!>*~*~*~


To Be a Poet

Beneath Obstructed
Nov. 08, 2003

they felt they were justifed
in burning me at the stake
going through the fire
getting to the other side
being celibate all those years
not knowing what this might bring
I had become enlightened
soon to be crucified
beneath obstruction
Carl Jung did say
it is "a moment of deadliest peril!"
"this immortal" capacity
we have within
it is in the voice of sages
silent as thunder
discredit me
rob me of my good name
I can see the image you would create
a lie built upon obstruction


i was a portrait artist
but now i am a poet
tettering on the brink
of oblivion leaping
into the abyss...



 

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molt and transmute

Posted on Dec 9th, 2006 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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Sitting the will on the Tao
we reverse the usual
course of conditioning
wholly integration
with the celestial design
one's energy flows
in the sense that
strength and lucidity
are as one
Pristine state
of completeness
inward and outward join
receptive and creative
firm and flexible
Strength is the substance
illumination is the function

"Finding out truth means finding out the principle
of communion of yin and yang."


~*~*~*~*~*~*~


Working the I-Ching

Without this climax in stillenss
there could be no
corresponding
dynamic action -
how would we ever learn?
Attachment in meditation
to tranquility alone
misses the point
the life of a recluse
is of no use or end upon itself
So who will kill this sacred cow?
Remove the seeds of vicious circles
Clarified awareness
Planting lotuses in fire
Dive in to the Dragon's pool
Acquire this pearl
of untold value
stabilized awareness
seven-times restored elixir
spiritual embryo
true intent
focus of attention
time of incubation
threashold of the dawn
of the original mind
reality that is unmasked
enter into the lair
looking for the tiger
using difficulty and danger
the challenges of this world
the external furnace
to refine mind
and develop character



Put an end to mundanity
purify celestial energy
Purge all pollution
of past inflences
Allow no flaws
to remain in the heart
Like a Dragon
Ready to leap
Like the majesty
of a tiger
being always there
Where there is
certainty
without diviation
inwardly autonomous
Yang strength
correctly balanced
opening the gate of life
closing the door of death
changing without changing
all acquired influences
evaporate of themselves
but first we must
refine the self
and then await
the proper time
to molt and transmute



"There is no function within function that has function,
making effort within the effort that is effortless.
"Being and nonbeing do not stand, for and against do not
bind; knowledge is everywhere, go where you may. The Tao
is in everything; the source is encountered at every
turn."

"Only when you use strength and not be used by it can
you develope the pure unadulterated vitality in which
firm strength is properly balanced."

"Using yang means using strength; the dragon, as the
radiance of consciousness, changes unfathomably, able
to ascend and descend, able to be large or small, able
to hide or appear... Cultivating the path of strength
is like riding a dragon."

The Taoist I-Ching



Eros ecclesia Spiritualis
Revelations reveal
Archetypical Metamorphosis
Receptivity to spirit
Less anima complecti complexus


Original natural reality
fire that burns
fire that heals
Return of the real
yin fire is restless
yang fire is true
when yin culminates
yang is born
light enters into the earth
a compainion comes
reversing the path
creative energy is born


Energy of open Illumination
Embracing Fire with Fire
Inner illumination
outwardly expressed
requires
Constancy of development
We turn the light around
to shine within
with flexible receptivity
We nurture inner illumination
preserving truthfulness
both inward and outward
combine to produce
the fire of One Illumination
yin within yang
Fire embracing the female
within
A thousand illuminations



Joined Mountains

One moutain joins another
immutably stabilized
in the right way
all thoughts rest
in their proper place
Responding to all things
ten thousand mountains
are joined
harmonious and peaceful
able to refine the self
and master the mind
as steady as a mountain
how many know the One?
and can think without
changing places
always upright
persistent in the path
faultless
from beginning to finish
complete all task
with no forced effort
by this one attainment alone
both action and stillness arise
from genuine intent



Within the human body
vitality, spirit, soul,
psyche, and intent
are like people
in the home
when the mind
is illumined
all are transformed
into guardian spirits
of truth in confluence
with heaven and earth
illumination grows
from receptivity
sadness, joy,
anger and happiness
are harmonious
in balance
using openness
to seek fulfillment
true nature
appears
like wind
blowing fire

While it is true that 'compassion' is one of the
three treasures as set forth in the teachings
of Lao-tzu, ie, Simplicity, Patience,
Compassion, understanding can not be
attained through the process of adding
more knowledge. The master takes
action by allowing things to take their
own course. He has nothing and so, has
nothing to lose. What he desires is non-
desire. What he learns is to unlearn, thus
he can care for all things. When they think
they know the anserws people are difficult
to guide, when they know they don't know,
people can find their own way. He has no
expectation for results, thus he is never
disappointed, his spirit never grows old.
When you realize there is nothing lacking
the whole world belongs to you.

Be content with what you have. True
fullness seems empty, true perfection
seems tranished, true wisdom seems
foolish. The path into the light seems
dark. She lets things come and go
effortlessly without desire. And simply
reminds people of who they've always
been. By not dominating the master
leads. The simplist pattern is the
clearest. Her constant practice is
humility. Return is the movement
of the Tao. Yielding is the way of
the Tao.

She doesn't glitter but allows
herself to be shapped by the Tao
and appears as rugged as a stone.
The master does nothing, yet leaves
nothing undone. Ordinary man keeps
reaching for power, thus he never has
enough. The master does what she
needs to do and demands nothing of
others. She doesn't try to be powerful,
thus she is truely powerful. True words
seem paradoxical. She steps out of the
way and lets the Tao speak for itself -
allow things to happen without
interference. The way forward seems
to go back. The direct path seems long.

There is no greater illusion than fear.
Less and less do you need to force
things until you arrive at non-action.
When nothing is done nothing is left
undone. True mastery can be gained
by letting things go their own way. It
cann't be gained by interference. The
master has no mind of his own, thus
he is truly present. Let the Tao be
present in your life and become
genuine, present in your family
and the family will flourish, present
in your Country and your country
will become an example for the
whole world, present in the Universe
and the universe will sing. How do we
know this is true, by looking inside
ourselves.




Perhaps:

The best we can hope for is to untie our own knots
the truth remains available to everyone
Good or bad, right or wrong is all a matter
of individual judgement, the more we attempt
to force change the more likely we are to
polarize factions and negate the 'big picture'

If you wish to govern avoid being clever
by not dominating the Master leads...
Be receptive careful courteous
and alert... Truth is subtle beyond
all conception; profound, fluid and
unfathomable. Approach it and there is
no beginning, Follow and there is
no end to it... you cann't know it, but
you can be it. By just realizing where
we come from, this is the essence
of all wisdom.


Yes, live your passion, follow your dream, and all things
good will come into being - but not necessarily
according to our vision, expectation, or intention.
Recently i intended to find more time for my writing
to take a break from an over demanding physically
draining work schedule, soon after that I was envoled
in a head on collsion - so i got my wish. The thing is
we resist change and once a big enough static
charge builds up in our life, the universe will step
in, as it were, to adjust the course of our being. This
has happened more times in my life than i have
time to mention. So, perhaps the old saying is true,
Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it.
Before the lose of my leg in a tragic traffic accident
i distinctly remember telling a friend, I sure wish I
had a wooden leg, just like ol' Chester on 'Marshal
Dillion' that way i wouldn't have to go off to war in
the draft. Guess what, less than one year later, once
again i got my wish. I still think it is kinda cool
walking on a prosthesis. Presently I am hoping to
find more time for being a visual artist, it seems
this poetry has now run it's course. Several years
ago a well known psychic assured me on nationally
syndicated radio that one day my work would catch
the attention of a most auspicious benefactor. And
now i get the distinct feeling that my many recent
hardships are nearing an end. It is Ok to dream.
I was an art major on scholarship, but the world
of spirit held my attention from the earliest age
perhaps due to tremendous trauma and
untold hardships of injustice and physical
challenge alone.

In Spirit

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Posted on Dec 9th, 2006 by ToltecLogic : Poet Artist ToltecLogic
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Kahlil Gibran once wrote that, "Wisdom stands on the street corner and calls to us above the multitude, but we deem her a thing without worth and despise them that follow her."
Whereas Jung observed that, "When a summit of life is reached, when the bud unfolds and from the lesser the greater emerges, then, as Nietzsche says, 'One becomes Two,' and the greater figure, which one always was but which remained invisible, appears to the lesser personality with the force of a revelation.
He who is turly and hopelessly little will always drag the revelation of the greater down to the level of his littleness, and will never understand that the day of judgement for his littleness has dawned. But the man who is inwardly great will know that the long expected friend of his soul, the immortal one, has now really come... a moment of deadliest peril!"



In The Dark

We can live in the dark
without a spark
And call this the light
We can live all our life
In obediance to ignorance
and call this divine
We can worship our own
intelligence and believe
that what we achieve
is worth the price
Who is at the helm?
We are a nation of fools
In a world spun out of control
In our bid for power
Without honor or humility
there is no impeccability
We neglect the totality
of the Self



The Mind of Tao

To activate the Mind of Tao
dissolve the human Mind
Day by day
Mundane energy wanes
Gradually
Celestial Energy grows
True Mind
Building the foundation
There is White within Black
Male within Female
One must use the Bellows
Self-refinement
Requires the True Lead
The Four Signs combine
The Five Elements
Are One Energy
The Three Treasures
Return to One
At the Edge of the Universe
Yin and Yang Merge
Unified Energy
Absolutely Open Nothingness
The State before Birth
Clear and Free
Round and bright
Unfixed to Form or Void
The Gold Elixir Burns
With Illumination
At the Heart
Of Heaven and Earth



natural innocent mind
inherent to humanity
the progenitor of life
source of yin and yang
concealed by temperment
the celestial
within the mundane
hard to gain
easy to lose
when heaven and earth
work together awakening
happens suddenly without
requiring years of effort



Inside Out

Jan. 16-04


If we are constant within change

like the Sun which remains

bright even in seceret at night

not only upon it's rising

then contentment is supreme

without the weeds of desire

clogging the portal of awareness

Blind allegiance selfish and uncaring

will never rise up to the heights

Gradual development is the surest way

where as prompt delivery

gained in haste is soon wasted

If you know the firing process

for the gold elixer of illumination

then you have the quality of humilty

with great power in virtue

This is the Spirit of Tao

not detached but engaged on principle


"Illumination that is not revealed is better than
illumination that is openly employed; this illumi-
nation has no form or trace."

"Once one has advanced to illumination, inside and
out are lucid and clear, then one can conceal one's
illumination and nurture it unbeknownst to others."

"Only then can it be said the fire returns to the
origin, a mass of harmonious energy, which has
energy but no substance, the original spirit of
innate knowledge and capacity unobscured."

Produce being
within nonbeing
spontaniously
without forced
effort
living energy
is stored within
flowing from
a deep source
the earthly
and celestial
are in mutual
harmony

"When great rivers are crossed beneficially, one enters
from striving into nonstriving: essence and life are
both realized, and one is physically and mentally
sublimated; merging with the Tao into reality."

"The gain or loss of illumination is a matter of
reversal or submission to conditioning."

"Inner accord is the path of reversal of conditioning;
outer accord is the path of submission to conditioning."

"Where there is illumination darkness disappears."

The Taoist I-Ching



"The mind of man is twofold; in one way it is true, in one
way it is false. So to look for the true mind, don't give rise
to arbitrary thoughts - then there is the true mind.

"The true mind is broad and luminous; where the true
mind abides is peace and freedom. When you manage
your affairs withthe true mind, everything is integrated;
when you seek the Tao with the true mind, myraid differ-
ences are of the same root.

"But if people want to use the true mind to deal with
affairs, they need to foster it so that it is strong, and to
keep it calm and uncluttered. Then it can work without
wearness, and be responsive even while tranquil.

"The teaching of spiritual alchemy says that when the
mind runs off one should gather it in; having gathered
it in, then let go of it. After action, seek rest; finding rest,
one develops enlightenment. Who says one cannot
find tranquility in the midst of clamor and activity?"

Chang San-feng


Striving for the Gold elixir
Heaven and Humanity
work together
Shut the gates
on the winter soltice
Awaiting the return
inward thoughts do not arise
externals do not enter
nurishing correctness
Is the secret
of temporal achievement
Opening to Love
Fullness must seek emptiness
Emptiness must seek fulfillment
strong firm and irrepressible
the will is correct
fostering growth
from vageness to clarity
Stillness is ever nurturing
Illumination arises from
inner openness
Close the Door on death
the door to Life will open
The living potential
is essential
within the furnace of evolution


"After a long time, the five elements will merge and
sublimate, body and mind are both refined, merging with
the Tao in reality."

"Not forgetting the fundamental, is like making a great
sacrafice to offer to heaven; it will not fail to bring
about good fortune."

"But the way to make a great sacrafice and bring about
good fortune cannot be accomplished simply by a moment
of emptiness; it is necessary to tread the ground of
reality step by step before one can achieve it. If
you know but do not act on it, it is the same as not
knowing..."

"The value of knowledge is only in its application."

"When this primal energy appears, this is what is
called the 'living midnight' in our bodies. At this
time we are merged in the qualities of heaven and earth,
joined with the light of sun and moon, harmonized with
the order of the seasons. This is the gate of yin and
yang, door of life and death, the wellspring of essence
and life, the alchemical furnace."

"The original energy of primordial true yang is herein:
Those who know it diligently cultivate it, restoring the
primordial within the temporal."

The Taoist I-Ching


First overcome self-importance
Being and nonbeing are one
action is not done
without understanding
firmness and flexibility
balance each other
within the death
dealing mechanism
reverse the usual
course of conditioning
with harmony and joy
Appropriate living potential
Amass sane energy
comprehend nature and life


The Crossing

Truthfulness is associated
with the Earth
the go-between
for yin and yang
from shallowness
to the depths
true intent
strong and balanced
correctly oriented
yin and yang blend
the five elements aggregate
integrated with natural principle
strength and flexibility are one
essence, feeling, vitality and spirit
return to the center
faithfulness that is firm
benevolence, justice, courtesy
and wisdom
return to the mind
illumining everything
secret of the gold elixir


"With the spirit knowing and the mind clear, inwardly cultivating
and subtly refining, clear about action and acting with clarity,
one's illumination will grow day by day."

"When illumination and action are applied in concert, practice of
the Tao is very easy."

freedom from partiality and bias
know when to go forward
know when to withdraw
forsee peril forstale danger
with the mind of Tao
the spirit is knowing
the joy of harmony is good

imported joy delights
in externals
if one is self satisfied
finding joy only in strength
but not in yielding
strong but unhappy
one will lose out
in the end
natrual brilliance
presumes upon
talent or status
hates to hear
honest words



Who understands the remedy?
"Kill the mind, enliven the spirit"
Action and stillness are
both functions of
The mind of Tao
No longer seduced
by the human mentality
Maintaining rectitude
in the midst of danger
By stilless danger
can be controled
By action danger
can be resolved
coming without going
before getting
mixed up in things
careful before haulting
the human mentality
does not arise
meeting danger
with rectitude
completing
the great path
auspiciously



"At the end of trouble, just when the human mind is calm and
the mind of Tao appears, if one does not understand the process
and tries to forcibly control the human mind, that will on the
contrary obscure the mind of Tao - to go on thus would mean
trouble. If one comes back to nurture the mind of Tao, without
tring to control the human mind, there is great merit in this."

"The end of trouble is percisely the gate of life, the door of death,
the point where both fortune and misfortune are possible.."

"If you do not know the gate of life and the door of death, not
only do you not know the mind of Tao, you do not even know
the human mind. If you do not know the mind of Tao, how can
you bring it to life?"

"If the mind of Tao is not brought to life and the human mind is
not dismissed, only fooling around in deviated methods, you will
bring on trouble where there was none. This is of no benefit to
essence and life, and is in fact harmful. How can we not beware?"

The Taoist I-Ching


This Burden


I did not ask for this burden

when one becomes two

In a moment

everything changes

that is when a teacher is needed

- chop wood carry water -

this is only the beginning

As the old Shaman will tell his

apprentice

'I am sorry that you have become

enlightened,

Now get back to work'

Waking up is nothing

living it free and undetected

in a world without vision

that is the challenge

How do you speak a laungage

that has no words?


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